#1 MAR 6, 2012 · 14 yr ago
Hi gang,
How is everyone? I don't know how often any of the team stop by the team forum these days - unfortunately, as happens with fan projects like this, real life seems to have gotten in the way for many of the team. This is no less true of me - but, I wanted to stop by and let you guys know that I am still around, and still alive, LOL! :D
In the last few months my life has changed completely - mostly for the better. As a musician my workload has really taken off - I'm now constantly either gigging, rehearsing or recording on my own or other people's projects, I'm playing the best I've ever played and am constantly in demand - if you check out my Facebook you'll get a fair flavour of it, LOL! :D
Although I'm so busy I barely know my head from my heels, I'm actually the happiest I've ever been - I'm constantly going out and about meeting new people, playing exciting places (I've got two gigs coming up this year that are in actual proper theatres - one of my longstanding ambitions), and doing exciting things. I'm sure most if not all of you guys know that I have autism / Asperger's, so for me to be doing what I'm doing right now is a huge achievement. I feel like a whole new person and I'm loving it! :)
Another thing that may or may not yield positive results, but which, whatever happens, is already having a positive impact on my life is - guess what? I've fallen in love, LOL! I know most of you know that it's only ever been about one person for me for about the last 5 years - I heard last year that she was getting married, and in fact her wedding is in about a fortnight's time. At first I was heartbroken, but now it's helped me gain the closure I need to move on and actually realise there are other women in the world besides this one girl! ;)
So yep, I've met someone and my feelings for her have grown over the last few months. I truthfully have no idea if she feels the same - at times I think she does and at times I think she doesn't. She's been hurt a few times (even though she's younger than me she's actually a divorcee) and, well, I'm just not sure. But, we're really good friends and she's an AMAZING singer, so it's all good! :)
One area where this girl has already changed my life is that (believe it or not) she has three kids from her marriage. I don't know how many of you guys know that all my life, as a consequence of my autism / Asperger's, I've had a phobia of babies and young children. At one stage in my life I couldn't cope with going into restaurants and other public places because of it. This phobia has improved a little over the years but has still been fairly crippling - however, obviously there's no way I could forge any sort of relationship with this girl without tackling it, so I elected to face it head on. About a week ago I went round her house to meet her kids - and everything went well. Her kids adored me and I adored her kids. It was like someone had flipped a switch in my brain. There's still work to be done (her kids were exceptionally well behaved that day!), but I already feel like someone's busted me out of jail, or that I've reached a destination I've been travelling to for years...
I've asked if I can come round and visit again and she's told me I can come round as often as I like, so obviously I intend to keep at this. Ironically, her middle son is also autistic and her eldest has Asperger's - this is some of how she & I became such close friends! Her son watches the new ThunderCats show - his mum thinks it's "pants" as it's so different from the original, which she grew up watching! ;)
So yeah, that's kind-of where I'm at. All of this is quite personal stuff I'm sharing - but, I wanted you guys to know why I'm a bit quiet and that I haven't deserted the ship. I regard all of you amongst my closest friends in the world, friends who've always been there for me - so, the last thing I want to do is pull a "MannyF" on you and just disappear for months on end without a word to anyone... :)
I am definitely still committed to the site, and once the new series episodes start rolling out I'm definitely still intending to write up the episode reviews, and do whatever my time schedule allows. At the moment I'm just being presented with opportunities that I will regret for the rest of my life if I don't pursue, and which already make me feel transformed into a new man - I turn 30 next month and I'm living a life that's more fulfilled and happy than I ever could have dreamed of, with potential for so much more. :)
I'm glad to share this with you guys and hope that all of you are doing well too! :)
Take care, and hope to speak to you all again soon! :)
How is everyone? I don't know how often any of the team stop by the team forum these days - unfortunately, as happens with fan projects like this, real life seems to have gotten in the way for many of the team. This is no less true of me - but, I wanted to stop by and let you guys know that I am still around, and still alive, LOL! :D
In the last few months my life has changed completely - mostly for the better. As a musician my workload has really taken off - I'm now constantly either gigging, rehearsing or recording on my own or other people's projects, I'm playing the best I've ever played and am constantly in demand - if you check out my Facebook you'll get a fair flavour of it, LOL! :D
Although I'm so busy I barely know my head from my heels, I'm actually the happiest I've ever been - I'm constantly going out and about meeting new people, playing exciting places (I've got two gigs coming up this year that are in actual proper theatres - one of my longstanding ambitions), and doing exciting things. I'm sure most if not all of you guys know that I have autism / Asperger's, so for me to be doing what I'm doing right now is a huge achievement. I feel like a whole new person and I'm loving it! :)
Another thing that may or may not yield positive results, but which, whatever happens, is already having a positive impact on my life is - guess what? I've fallen in love, LOL! I know most of you know that it's only ever been about one person for me for about the last 5 years - I heard last year that she was getting married, and in fact her wedding is in about a fortnight's time. At first I was heartbroken, but now it's helped me gain the closure I need to move on and actually realise there are other women in the world besides this one girl! ;)
So yep, I've met someone and my feelings for her have grown over the last few months. I truthfully have no idea if she feels the same - at times I think she does and at times I think she doesn't. She's been hurt a few times (even though she's younger than me she's actually a divorcee) and, well, I'm just not sure. But, we're really good friends and she's an AMAZING singer, so it's all good! :)
One area where this girl has already changed my life is that (believe it or not) she has three kids from her marriage. I don't know how many of you guys know that all my life, as a consequence of my autism / Asperger's, I've had a phobia of babies and young children. At one stage in my life I couldn't cope with going into restaurants and other public places because of it. This phobia has improved a little over the years but has still been fairly crippling - however, obviously there's no way I could forge any sort of relationship with this girl without tackling it, so I elected to face it head on. About a week ago I went round her house to meet her kids - and everything went well. Her kids adored me and I adored her kids. It was like someone had flipped a switch in my brain. There's still work to be done (her kids were exceptionally well behaved that day!), but I already feel like someone's busted me out of jail, or that I've reached a destination I've been travelling to for years...
I've asked if I can come round and visit again and she's told me I can come round as often as I like, so obviously I intend to keep at this. Ironically, her middle son is also autistic and her eldest has Asperger's - this is some of how she & I became such close friends! Her son watches the new ThunderCats show - his mum thinks it's "pants" as it's so different from the original, which she grew up watching! ;)
So yeah, that's kind-of where I'm at. All of this is quite personal stuff I'm sharing - but, I wanted you guys to know why I'm a bit quiet and that I haven't deserted the ship. I regard all of you amongst my closest friends in the world, friends who've always been there for me - so, the last thing I want to do is pull a "MannyF" on you and just disappear for months on end without a word to anyone... :)
I am definitely still committed to the site, and once the new series episodes start rolling out I'm definitely still intending to write up the episode reviews, and do whatever my time schedule allows. At the moment I'm just being presented with opportunities that I will regret for the rest of my life if I don't pursue, and which already make me feel transformed into a new man - I turn 30 next month and I'm living a life that's more fulfilled and happy than I ever could have dreamed of, with potential for so much more. :)
I'm glad to share this with you guys and hope that all of you are doing well too! :)
Take care, and hope to speak to you all again soon! :)
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